When it clicked

I always knew I would be a wrapper, although my 13 year old self was hoping for more of a gangster rapper, not baby wrapper.

I am not sure where I found the idea of babywearing, all I know is while I was pregnant, I was beyond excited to find a Moby wrap for $20 in a resale store. From there, I found other carriers (soft structured carriers [ssc], mei tai) and tried to find something I loved. It wasn't until I discovered babywearing swaps on Facebook. I was hooked. For about 2 months, I window shopped. I knew I needed a woven wrap, but what one, what size, why sizes, and why do they all have 5 names? I opted instead for a table cloth off amazon; it is white with brightly colored flowers, and made by Squish Wear - it was meant to be and is still a favorite while she's small enough.
Fast forward 6 months and here we are with more wovens than we ever use, and what I like to consider advanced wrapping skills. I am starting my 3rd Carry-a-Day Challenge and hoping to finish my first. And of course the dreaded double hammock with the stupid chest pass is up.. so I take a deep breath and superman that baby up, and somehow, it just clicked. I realised what a good seat should feel like and why; I figured out how to tighten through the pass wrapped around your chest; I was able to finish and tie off with a crooked knot and crooked middle marker, but I was so impressed with the level up it was beautiful. Since then, this confidence has helped me continue to day 5 of this challenge! (I gave up at day 2 of the last one...)
The moral of the story: one day, it just clicks. You will have days of pure frustration including throwing your wrap and sitting on the floor holding you crying baby while you try to pull your shitime together. And you will have days of pure joy where everything, just clicked.